I'm Sorry Lyrics - Singles - 360

I should be dead maybe I got nine lives? 

Seven left cos I've already died twice 

I'm glad it wasn't bye-bye Because 

its my time to do it without the high-life 

what I'm making is really dope 

but i needa talk about some shit that 

happened a year ago hold up 

let me clear my throat yo im about to get deep 

but i really hope you feel it though. 

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See talking about it hurts it's when 

I was an addict but i was at my worst 

No-one knew I didn't tell one person 

couldn't bring myself to do it cos i felt like a burden. 

Give me any drug I was chewing em up 

if I have nine lives then I'm using em up. 

No-one knew my addiction it was stupid as fuck 

90 pills daily of nurofen plus 

I know that's extreme and i should be dead right 

but i was so fucked up 

my tolerance was that high 

that's the thing with the codeine addiction it's over the counter so you don't need prescriptions 

That's three packets in a day 

I didnt get high but i would have 

em anyway because if I didn't take em then 

I would be hitting withdraws and guess what? 

All of this was mid-tour 

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and i cant play in this form 

having shit thoughts like i got nothing to live for 

I was a zombie i couldnt feel nothing 

I smashed four packets 

cos i just wanted to feel something 

yo I overdosed fo'sure I was at the 

venue i was going to preform 

I can't remember see I was told in the report 

my tour manager found me convulsing on the floor everyone surrounding no one knowing what its for 

literally no one knew I was going through it all 

I fucked up I should be knowing this before I'm a fucking junkie how am I going on a tour? 

I let down my fans and i owe it to them all 

that's why I'm being honest and 

so open with it all it's so hard 

no one knowing what is wrong 

I can't talk about it so I wrote it in this song 

woke up in hospital going through withdraws 

someone guarding my bed but nobody would talk 

no phone there nobody to call 

saying what the fuck is going on 

and no one would inform me 

And I'm not knowing what's it's for tubes everywhere if only I could walk 

a man approaches am I alright doc? 

Then he tells me I'm on suicide watch 

I'm a danger to myself I wouldn't believe him 

I didn't try kill myself but they wouldn't believe me 

I spent a month in a hospital bed 

living in a nightmare and 

i just want it to end 

I'm thinking to myself have I got any friends? 

Or friends who don't use have I got any left? 

There's many times where I would want to be dead 

but we've lost too many and I don't want to be next 

now im happy I got me some rest 

I know fo'sure now i don't want it again 

the harder I hit the gym then the stronger I get 

the more the devil on my shoulder 

hasn't got any strength 

I let my fans and my family down 

the people standing by me are like family now 

yo im sorry to anyone who's a fan of me 

I understand if you wanted to abandon me 

But if it wasn't for my family 

I Woulda tied the knot on the 

rope the devil handed me. 

I gotta show ma 'father and my mum love 

and let em know that 

it's not them that fucked up 

now you got a quality son 

if i say im gonna do it 

then the job will get done 

I embrace any pain now im not gonna run 

the gyms a new addiction but a positive one 

the battle with addiction it's a battle on its own 

the worst part is I try battle it alone 

so if your hearing this and your battling at home 

tell somebody because your family should know! 

I'm loving life now I'm getting it back 

if I can do this shit fucking anyone can 

can't remember cos I blacked out 

but I wouldn't change a thing cos it 

made me who I am now