Dreaming Of Throwing Up Lyrics - A Wilhelm Scream

So I'm looking at this bottle, and this bottle, it speaks to me. 

It says get off the fucking train, so I jumped down. 

These metaphors are for assholes, and I'm not different. 

I'll get to what I mean, but slowly. 

Roses and poetry; that's all you want to be? 

It's not alive, and not dead. It's looking for a reason to be. 

Not alive, and not dead. 

You give me goals impossible and I get further from my own. 

If these were lies then I wouldn't be leaving. You had to need me. 

I tried this once before. It's just as insulting. What for? 

It's not alive, and not dead. Looking for a reason to be? 

Can we find a balance, a medium? 

My anger was a heavy weight you bore. 

Now I'm balancing meteors. I want to see you. 

But not alive, and not dead. Show me what you used to be. 

I was looking at this bottle and the words made sense to me, 

because it was all a fucking dream. 

A lie. 

I'm not alive, and Im not dead. 

I just see my goals are impossible and I get further from them all. 

These mocking words. We buried both. 

What a world without you holds, I had to know.