Redemption Denied Lyrics - Blood For Blood

You know sometimes when I get up in the morning, 

I don't know if I can face another day 

because shit's been so fucking hard for so fucking long 

and it don't seem like shits ever going to change. 

Sometimes it seems like shit ain't doing nothing but getting worse. 

Sometimes when I look in the mirror, 

I look despised at what I see cause pride 

strength, all of love and life they don't seem to have alot to do with me. 

Feels like something went wrong with me a long time ago, 

something inside me way deep down died 

and I can't remember when, 

I just don't know where the fuck I went wrong... 

What's life but a river of tears anyway, huh? 

Every Day 

Each fucking day I pray 

I pray to a god that I know does not exist 

For a way 

Some fucking way 

Some day 

For away to make my way through this world full of shit 

Every Day 

Each fucking day I pray 

I pray to a god that I know does not exist 

For a way 

Some fucking way 

Some day 

For a way to make my way through this world full of shit 

I've got nothing left 

I await for the angel of death 

I've lost too many times too many times to count the pain is so great 

Let me tell you something, rock bottom is a sweet fucking dream, 

a myth made up by a liar who's dispear is a void you can slip into forever. 

I've been as low as you can go 

and I guess here at the bottom the only place you can go is up, 

but everytime I start to get ahead everytime I start to get somewhere 

it's seems like someone or something knocks me the fuck back down. 

One step forward, two steps back. 

I read somewhere that "without hope, man is but an animal" 

...I think I've lost hope 

I've got nothing left 

I await for the angel of death 

I've lost to many times to many times to count the pain is so great 

I'm so fucking tired of being fucked up all the time 

but I can't seem to do it any other way, 

maybe I'm not as strong as you 

but sometimes my fucked up life it brings me down 

when I look around. 

My life it didn't make me hard 

it just hardened something deep down inside of me. 

I think it was my humanity. 

I want it back, I want to feel normal again, I wanna feel like a human. 

I don't wanna be like this no more, 

I'm just looking for some shelter of salvation 

or something to believe in or just maybe someone who cared. 

I've got nothing left 

I await for the angel of death 

I've lost to many times to many times to count the pain is so great 

I never asked for life 

I wish that at birth I had died 

I tried to drown this hate 

Death will be the cure for all this pain 

Every Day 

Each fucking day I pray 

I pray to a god that I know does not exist 

For a way 

Some fucking way 

Some day 

For a way to make my way through this world full of shit 

Every Day 

Each fucking day I pray 

I pray to a god that I know does not exist 

For a way 

Some fucking way 

Some day 

For a way to make my way through this world full of shit 

I've got nothing left 

I await for the angel of death 

I've lost to many times to many times to count the pain is so great 

I never asked for life 

I wish that at birth I had died 

I tried to drown this hate 

Death will be the cure for all this pain 

Every Day 

Each fucking day I pray 

I pray to a god that I know does not exist 

For a way 

Some fucking way 

Some day 

For a way to make my way through this world full of shit 

Every Day 

Each fucking day I pray 

I pray to a god that I know does not exist 

For a way 

Some fucking way 

Some day 

For a way to make my way through this world full of shit 

I've got nothing left 

I await for the angel of death 

I've lost to many times to many times to count the pain is so great 

I never asked for life 

I wish that at birth I had died 

I tried to drown this hate 

Death will be the cure for all this pain 

Every Day 

Each fucking day I pray 

I pray to a god that I know does not exist 

For a way 

Some fucking way 

Some day 

For a way to make my way through this world full of shit 

Every Day 

Each fucking day I pray 

I pray to a god that I know does not exist 

For a way 

Some fucking way 

Some day 

For a way to make my way through this world full of shit 

There's no where to turn, everyone betrays you. 

I can't trust anyone and I'm so fucking paranoid. 

I'm always waiting for the fall, for the let down. 

Trust nobody for sure. 

I can't remember when a day's gone by 

that I haven't thought about taking myself out. 

I know I ain't shit but I know I'll never be shit. 

I've got no future but I think I can deal with it, I think I can live, 

if I can just look at one person 

and see them smile at me and know that they meant it. 

Every Day 

Each fucking day I pray 

I pray to a god that I know does not exist 

For a way 

Some fucking way 

Some day 

For a way to make my way through this world full of shit 

Every Day 

Each fucking day I pray 

I pray to a god that I know does not exist 

For a way 

Some fucking way 

Some day 

For a way to make my way through this world full of shit 

Every Day 

Each fucking day I pray 

I pray to a god that I know does not exist 

For a way 

Some fucking way 

Some day 

For a way to make my way through this world full of shit 

Every Day 

Each fucking day I pray 

I pray to a god that I know does not exist 

For a way 

Some fucking way 

Some day 

For a way to make my way through this world full of shit