Deeper Than Love Lyrics - I Want To Grow Up - Colleen Green

Someday I hope for a lover to kill me 

It's the closest I can hope to get to anybody 

It's the closest I can come to being really free 

And there's a ring of questions on my mind lately 

Like will I find a love that lasts long as my life? 

Or will I die before ever becoming a wife? 

And I'm wondering if I'm even the marrying kind 

How can I give you my life when I know you're just gonna die? 

Is there anything stronger than biology? 

Is love being ruined by technology? 

Nowadays commitment seems like a burden to carry 

I don't wanna think about it 

I don't wanna (I don't wanna) 

Think about it (think about it) 

I don't wanna (I don't wanna) 

Think about it (think about it) 

I don't wanna (I don't wanna) 

Think about it (think about it) 

I don't wanna think about it 

It's too scary 

And the closest I can come to being really free 

Is letting my lover perform experiments on me 

Observe and analyse 

And empirically hypothesise 

Cos I wanna know real love so desperately 

But I think it's gotta happen scientifically 

Cos I'm scared 

Afraid of real intimacy 

You know, the kind they say happens psychologically 

Dressed up like a surgeon, you could open my heart 

Remove the brain and leave the body in charge 

No more emotions taking control 

We will pick a part and play out our roles 

Further than fantasy, deeper than love could ever be 

Further than fantasy, deeper than love could ever be 

And the only best friends 

I ever made 

Were people I knew I didn't have to see every day 

The closest to true love 

I ever came 

Was with someone I kept many miles away 

Cos I'm wary of eliminating distance 

This could surely be the death of 

Any romance 

Cos I'm shitty and I'm lame and I'm dumb and I'm a bore 

And once you get to know me you won't love me anymore 

And that possibility worries me the most 

Not harm or abuse or becoming a ghost 

It's the closeness, the intimacy 

I'm afraid, it might kill me