Not To Be Here Lyrics - Leaving Babylon - Covenant

if I thought that you could stand I wouldn't hold you like I do 

if I thought that I could live my life with someone else than you 

as you turned your head to listen to what I could never say 

in a moment of regret I almost gave it all away 

that I need you to love myself 

that I need you to be strong 

I'll do anything to make this disappear 

I'll do anything not to be here 

if I thought that I could stay I wouldn't leave you like I do 

if I thought that in a million days just one we'd make it through 

and every morning as you whisper I must never let you go 

I would give away my life if only I could let you know 

that I need you to love myself 

that I need you to be strong 

I'll do anything to make this disappear 

I'll do anything not to be here