After All Lyrics - Singles - Dar Williams

You go ahead, push you luck 

Find out how much love the world can hold 

Once upon a time I had control 

And reigned my soul in tight 

Well the whole truth, it's like the story of a wave unfurled 

But I held the evil of the world, so I stopped the tide, froze it up from inside 

And it felt like a winter machine that you go through and then 

You catch your breath and winter starts again 

And everyone else is spring bound 

Then when I chose to live, there was no joy it's just a line I crossed 

I wasn't worth the pain my death would cost, so I was not lost or found 

And if I was to sleep, I knew my family had more truth to tell 

And so I traveled down a whispering well to know myself through them 

I'm growing up, my mom had a room full of books and hid away in there 

Her father raging down a spiral stair, till he found someone 

Most days his son and sometimes I think my father too was a refugee 

I know they tried to keep their pain form me 

They could not see what it was for 

But now I'm sleeping fine 

Sometimes the truth is like a second chance 

I am the daughter of a great romance 

And they are the children of the war 

Well the sun rose, with so many colors it nearly broke my heart 

It worked me over like a work of art and I was a part off all that 

So go ahead, push your luck, say what it is you gotta say to me 

We will push on into that mystery 

And it'll push right back and there are worse things than that 

'Cause for every price, and every penance that I could think of 

It's better to have fallen in love than never to have fallen at all 

'Cause when you live in a world, well it gets into who you thought you'd be 

And now I laugh at how the world changed me, I think life chose me after all