Never Tasted Tears Lyrics - Emilie Autumn

I've never tasted tears like these before 

And though they are the saddest I have known 

Their simple cause is none but one of joy 

For now it seems I may not be alone 

Upon this earth as I have been 'til now 

A truly unexpected twist of fate 

For I had given up on everyone 

Especially myself, and thought it late 

Too late for any soul to cast a line 

His hook would hit the ice and snap in two 

But someone blew a kiss and with his breath 

Unfroze what ne'er a roaring fire could do 

An angel now is mine and from the start 

I knew that I was bound to let him in 

But while I smile I weep because I know 

That something ends so that this can begin 

God, what a fool am I, or am I wise? 

For years have I kept hidden in my heart 

The name of one who never had been more 

But whom I wrote about and set apart 

From other men, though never did I tell 

My feelings, nay, but used him as a muse 

An inspiration, something to adore 

But rarely did I think on what I'd lose 

If ever my affections were replaced 

By someone living, breathing, warm and real 

For while I pledged my life to him in song 

The same for me I knew he did not feel 

If I could tell the truth, I'd say I planned 

To go on in this fashion for all time 

I didn't care he couldn't care for me 

As long as I could own him in each rhyme 

And have someone to think about each night 

When torment after torment wracked my soul 

To writhe in sorrow, bathe in pain's delight 

To fill my pages was my only goal 

Until the day I dared to call it love 

For this love was the only I had known 

And somehow I could keep the rest away 

For in my mind I never was alone 

And being thus in love, though with a specter, 

I never did expect, nor wish, nor care 

To take another in that holy place 

Though in my mind I knew no one was there 

Yay, in my mind, but not so in my soul 

I loved, I swear I loved, else why this pain 

When of my will I opened up the door 

And swept the space where I swore hed remain 

And something dies within me as I sweep 

As something new is born in every tear 

Past years of memories I long to keep 

A future that I both long for and fear 

There really was no question when it came 

This shooting star, both fire and gentleness 

Who never gave me time to make my choice 

But made my will his own with each caress 

For once and only once I did not think 

Where I should feel and for that I was proud 

But it was one thing to enact the part 

And something else to say the word aloud 

For once I had, I felt a shadow fade 

Which over me had hung for all these years 

And no true loss in all the world could match 

The sense of someone passing with my tears 

I hadn't known 'til then how lost I was 

Enveloped in this mist of my design 

So much of me my muse had thus become 

That in my eyes no star was seen to shine 

Unless it bore some of my phantom's light 

Or carried strains of music in the beams 

Until my soul was open to the view 

No man could enter, except in my dreams 

Its over now and I am not afraid 

I know full well what I am meant to do 

But late at night when I recall my muse 

I cry for us as though he ever knew 

That I had waited years to hear my name 

Once spoken as it should have always been 

Id wait there still but someone real appeared 

And stole the heart no man could hope to win 

If to my muse I'd ever said hello 

It might not hurt this much to say goodbye 

But there is something tragic in this scene 

Which may appear as joyous to the eye 

Of anyone who witnesses myself 

Bound in the arms and lips of my new friend 

Completed in a way I've never been 

And healing wounds I thought would never mend 

The truth that shattered my reality 

The soul I dreamed but never thought Id meet 

And now I don't look back except in dreams 

Yet when I do the pain is always sweet 

For only pain can show me who I was 

And from that girl to me how much Ive grown 

Ive never tasted tears like these before 

And yes, they are the saddest I have known