Visions Lyrics - Emilie Autumn

Bits of conversation fill my head 

Tangling with words we haven't said 

Glimpses of a movement you once made 

Knowing I could live but dream instead 

Wondering if you saw the part I played 

Whether I'm the reason that you stayed 

Only half believing it could be 

Well aware I want what I forbade 

Questioning my own reality 

Doubting in my mind the things I see 

Altering perception fast as light 

Do you know for years you've haunted me? 

Speaking words you never could recite 

Giving bliss as if to test my flight 

All is but illusion, this I know 

Yet more felt than objects in my sight 

The world may see my skin but just below 

Simmers what I think but never show 

Lifetimes lived with you but more than this, 

Guessing where in your sweet dreams you go 

Do you drown in memory's abyss? 

Is there music in a voice you miss? 

When you close your eyes do you relive 

Each averted glance, aborted kiss? 

Do you harbor what you should forgive? 

Search for signs in every narrative? 

Or repel all company save one, 

Who is not cure but palliative? 

While its possible these things you've done, 

All too likely I'm the only one 

And upon this thought my vision fled 

So I end back where I had begun 

Nothing but the present fills your head 

Forgetting more than half the things I've said 

Shadows of a sacrifice you made 

Knowing you could dream but live instead.