Awaiting My Death Lyrics - Singles - Esoteric

Windows of shattered dreams. 

Laid out before me. 

My broken reflection hauntingly stares back, 

As once again I pick up the pieces of my mind. 

Rebuilding myself again. 

And I know what is done. 

The smaller pieces lost. 

They used to be large, 

But now they are gone. 

I cannot find my hope, my joy or my life, 

Just empty splinters embedded in my mind. 

Causing me pain, I grimace in awe at the overwhelming pain. 

Caused by what I've lost, by what has been destroyed. 

My scars start to bleed. 

From my wounds of sorrow, 

I watch the blood run. 

A release of my self-hate, 

And still the blood flows: 

Scarred all over my body. 

With each scar comes a memory of pain. 

Though it's hard to tell now, they all look the same. 

Awaiting the day when my blood is no more, 

Maybe then the pain will be gone. 

I await my death with both relief and with fear, 

I sense that my shattered mind knows it is near. 

[Music - Greg. Autumn 1993] 

[Lyrics - Greg. 9/1993]