Higher Side Of Low Lyrics - Indecision

swallowing an ocean of absence 

soaking in the tortured admissions and passionate denials 

the absent friends and enemies, the manufactured threats 

the crushing weight of memories are all that I have left 

the absence of feeling - no love, no pity, no hate 

and the absence of anything as what's left of me 

drowns in waves of mindless apathy, submerged in total despair 

dilute the venom of misery 

see the world through the bottom of a glass 

as all sensation separates from a numbing heart 

another dosage of the antidote suffocates emotion before it starts the same depression 

the same fear...constant frustration at the same reflected stares 

...but cold flesh protects my mind like a clear, smooth, hard bottle-glass skull 

from crushing volumes of nothing