Black Winter Day Lyrics - Singles - Jedi Mind Tricks

Torn apart now 

I cannot have this combination 

And fusion, of your elixir 

Torn apart now 

These are the choices we made 

Do I follow or walk away 

Yeah, most of my adult life I've been torn into two 

If you love me, then I love you and this song is for you 

It's tight hard when you know that your sick 

And your shorty seein' you as an emotional wreck 

The closer I get, it's like the farther I feel 

And my heart has turned into this heavy armour and steel 

It's hard to be real, hard to listen to the dumb shit 

And I take a lot of pills 'cause it numbs shit 

I wish I had another path to follow 

Wish that I could be a man and learn to pass the bottle 

A graphic novel, my future a box or an urn 

Havin' dreams about death, but I'm not that concerned 

And I'm diseased, through the seasons they turn 

Watchin' leaves from the trees turn disease and they burn 

I'm eager to learn, but I'm holdin' my breath 

And everyday alive is just another closer to death 

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Torn apart now 

I cannot have this combination 

And fusion, of your elixir 

Torn apart now 

These are the choices we made 

Do I follow or walk away 

Yeah, I've been alive longer then I expected to be 

And took care of everything that's expected of me 

Took care of my girl and my mother 

I told her that I'm always here and I love her 

I handle shit differently 'cause I'm grown now 

And the truth is that I'd rather be alone now 

I'd rather not have to deal with the day 

And I hate when people ask me how I'm feelin' today 

My brother Rasul, we had a beef and grudge 

But we grew up together, cousin, so it's peace and love 

I wish all the best, I wish all the shine 

I wish I didn't wanna offer my thoughts with a nine 

I'm thoughtful and kind, but I'm evil alas 

But everything I love has turned to a tedious task 

I feel that life a waiting game for people to pass 

But nobody ever want you to see through the mask 

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Torn apart now 

I cannot have this combination 

And fusion, of your elixir 

Torn apart now 

These are the choices we made 

Do I follow or walk away 

Yeah, I don't wanna be a burden to y'all 

I just wanna know exactly what my purpose is for 

I feel like nothin' I do is ever right 

And that I'm actin' a fool another night 

And I admit, I don't take care of myself 

So I do a lot of thinkin' and preparing myself 

'Cause the fact is my father died young and I might, too 

And it ain't any way to tell what I might do 

I don't wanna leave my mother behind 

I don't want for her to cry, because the struggle is mine 

I don't want for her to grind no more 

I don't want for her to work a 9-to-5 no more 

I ain't have to work a fuckin' 9-to-5 before 

So I'm tryin' to get this money to provide for y'all 

And if the shit ain't work out and I'm suddenly gone 

Just remember that the motherfuckin' love isn't gone 

Pazman 

Torn apart now 

I cannot have this combination 

And fusion, of your elixir 

Torn apart now 

These are the choices we made 

Do I follow or walk away