Different Love Lyrics - Joe Budden

It go, off of my sabbatical 

Took a few years cause Slaughter is what I had to do 

Which only brings me to now and I ought to be a radical 

I say that cause my autobiographical is more so just a graph of you 

I ain't mad, you did more than what I asked of you 

As for me, I did less than what I could've 

So though we were a hit I had to cancel that show 

And now my standing solo, I'll be amped when she not a ho 

But what you doing right now is real commendable 

Take strength to do 

Cause between us there's some deep root stare 

I gave you the best dick you ever got in your life 

And stupid me thought it would be enough to keep you there 

I thought you loved football 

I was running through the hole with the stiff on 

But got disarmed, guess it was just harm 

I ain't need to fuck, I was looking for a peer 

They say once you stop looking what you looking for appears 

You were stronger than I pictured you, much stronger than me 

And almost just as strong as John 

And John, oh, that's just a friend of my moms 

With tubes coming out his nose, but shit I never knew why 

But he was born with his heart in the right side of his chest 

No, for real, his heart is in the right side of his chest 

Doctors confused, they must do what they can do 

But impute and say it ain't on the right side of his chest 

Scared he might die in his sleep, deep 

Every time he coughs wonders if it's a cough or a symptom 

Us will get better later 

He gon' live his whole life waking up every morning to a respirator 

So I don't never say what I can't do 

If he can be happy with life than nigga I can too 

While Jose wanna die 

Ain't tell nobody, but eyeing his eyes feel I should probably identify 

I said everyday he lives with pain and want to end it 

Something's wired wrong in your brain, you gotta mend it 

Had a bad breakup and let it expose dude 

But if she was getting you high then she would get you low too 

So who's there to wait on me? 

Y'all just get it off y'all and put the weight on me 

Nigga look me in my eyes, it was amazing to me 

And said she don't understand you not as crazy as me 

You got God, nigga, I'm the most mentally flawed nigga 

You not even built to withstand what all I've endured, nigga 

You know shit about the thoughts in my head 

Or the strength I need daily just to get out of bed 

Just to open my eyes, nigga, open your eyes 

The words spoken of wise, you just know it in disguise 

We can end this right here, I got nothing more to say to you 

You ain't never met another fucking nigga crazier 

Blank stare, couldn't believe 'em 

Cat chastised me cause I got help when you need some 

I can give less than a fuck and not a damn 

I never be apologetic over who I am 

I'm the same me, nothing changes when the riches do 

But niggas wanna suck you dry just like the bitches do 

They enter your mentions, sucks to be the center of attention 

When you can't even center your attention 

Yeah, so I'm fucking out of frustration 

They love every second and accuse me of persuasion 

Jam was a cancer to me, I had to rid it 

Red got in her feelings fast, but won't admit it 

Dawn I was bored then, never really smithen 

V got threatened by the thought of competition 

Malo wanna fuck all day, don't know how 

She why I got a Viagra in my wallet right now 

Step kept it simple, loved me for my mental 

B got a nigga, but she used me as her rental 

And you, you just give me resistance 

Say you needed comfort zone, for you it's distance 

I tell 'em all I'm not available emotionally 

They start giving me advice like they coaching me 

I don't even ask it 

It's something about bipolar sociopath shit 

They just find it attractive 

Yeah, anti-social, but I mingle now 

But I've been arguing much more since I've been single, how? 

Tell me is this a relationship or just a fuckship? 

Whatever situation it is it's all fuck shift 

I'll admit it, I might love her a bit differently 

As for them they'll all love to see a different me 

Some cried to me, some are begging for it 

Someone'll see that change, but not be present for it 

You just act so frightened 

Ignoring all logic now, she won't buy in 

Even in your absence my feelings are heightened 

Though I know some love's lost, it's not on my end 

It's not mine, it's not mine at all