X-ray Lyrics - Singles - John Reuben

Broken reality, there's no means of escape 

Broken reality, lookin' to leave this mind-state 

But the more that I leave the harder it seems I come back 

Now, I'm livin' out these lies that I call my trap 

And I call it that 'cuz I didn't do this intentionally 

What I now call my trap I used to call my fantasy 

And why do I fantasize in order to leave the reality 

Of not being able to relate personally or socially 

Sometimes I wonder what it would be like to be respected 

But until then I'll dream about bein' accepted 

I wonder what it would feel like to be respected 

All wrong, no right, no one, no sun, no light 

This life, this fight, I'll hide inside, no matter 

Where you go, you can't escape what's inside 

Man, somebody get me out of this place 

Of loneliness, hopelessness, depression and disgrace 

At this pace I'm on the verge of self-destruction 

With nothin' to go on but my self instruction 

So what does that leave me, I try to communicate with the world 

But none of you out there could perceive me 

So instead of words I began to express through actions 

So anger an' rage become my mere satisfaction 

Hate fills my being, I'm seeing no means of release 

So I escape into my fantasy where I live in peace 

Here I can be anybody I want to, here I can be anybody I choose too 

Here in this place I feel good, there's no restriction 

This place is so good that it's become my addiction 

I say I'm not lost but why am I searching, I say pain don't fade me 

But then again why am I hurtin', I say I won't show emotion but yet 

I can't hide these eyes that have been stained by tears 

I say I can't be held back but yet I've been in the same place for years 

I say I wanna go free but something keeps me bound 

I say I wanna go higher but my feet haven't left the ground 

Man, I told y'all I didn't care but then again why is my heart so heavy? 

I told the world to bring it but deep down I knew I wasn't ready 

I said I couldn't be deceived meanwhile I'm walking 

Into the same old traps, I said I couldn't be broke 

As I watch my world collapse, watch my world collapse 

No matter where you go, you can't escape what's inside 

No matter where you go, you can't escape what's inside 

No matter where you go, you can't escape what's inside 

No matter where I go 

No matter where you go, you can't escape what's inside 

No matter where you go, you can't escape what's inside 

No matter where you go, you can't escape what's inside 

No matter where I go