Christina Lyrics - Keith Murray

I'm always getting shitted on son, ain't gonna be no, no different 

Can you accept me as I am? I ask you 

Always, the love lords? I need you 

Can you open your heart to mine and accept me and all my faults 

During the human course activity, watch me give me my room 

I am radiant, give me my space, I am light 

[Verse 1] 

Yo, 2/27/98 I wrote a check out 

to H.W. funeral home for my little sister Christina 

15 years old damn man this fuckin world is so cold 

8 months before I had to do three years 

Coming from the air port my face burning with tears 

I had this black cloud hovering over me 

Far back as I can check back down my family tree 

Its been with me since my first LP 

2nd LP I was sittin in court 

3rd LP I was trapped in the belly of the beast, got it back to the streets 

by the power of the mind and positive of light 

some say livin is death and dying is life 

I say pray for me that I should be born tonight 

I remember roaming the streets in those cold winter nights 

Look at me this is my life 

[Chorus] 

Suddenly my life feels so alone, tell me what the hell is going on 

Tell me, tell me, why my life feels so alone, so wrong 

Tell me what the hell is going on 

Help me, please help me 

[Verse 2] 

I can't even begin to explain the mental anguish 

I went through as a child when I heard my pops had passed 

I went to see him on the sick bed 

with my grandmother, that day I knew it was the last 

I loved him but I had to grow up without him 

Over the years I've lived through frustrations and questions 

In 90' I went to jail as an adolescent 

Then in 92' my moms had to go back to the essence 

Got me thinkin about the meaning of my existence (I lost my best friend) 

I realised the devil was spying on my from a distance 

He don't want me to receive my blessings he fear me 

My family suffered more deaths then the Kennedy's 

This is real and if you don't believe me ask someone that grew with me 

Know them and feel my energy 

Please never fabricated nor duplicated so I ask you 

Can you open you hearts and minds and receive me with all my faults 

Can you open your hearts and minds unconditionally to begin to understand my cause 

Hey yo this world is a pool of sharks 

But I'm the animal right when I stand up for myself and bark 

And this year I gotta go all out for it 

I've been hustlin for 13 years, nothin to show for it (I mean nothin) 

Lookin over my bills damn they eaten me up 

Entertainment task force watchin so what the fuck 

I paid my taxes too fuck you and your uncle 

The laws of nature will see me through 

And yeah I peep it and naw it ain't no secret 

How niggaz give their word with no intentions to keep it 

I'm givin you the roots of the real 

My emotional feelings bi-polar is how I feel