All I Could Do Lyrics - Thunder Thighs - Kimya Dawson

I had a show a few weeks ago 

It's getting harder and harder to sing 

And it is hard to focus on my guitar playing 

When inside a baby is kicking 

At first I was sad and scared 

'Cause this is all I know how to do 

Then John and Peter played standing up 

Sometimes something will change 

And that change will change you 

Then I thought back to six years ago 

When Brian Pilkton told me to play 

He gave me a car, a typewriter, a guitar 

Before that all I could do was count days 

Then I thought back to before my coma 

Rehab in Tacoma, my junkie roommates 

And all that I knew how to do was 

Put cigarettes out on myself, I took pills and I drank 

And I thought back to when I was 15 

How I was squeaky clean and I wanted to die 

I was feeding the homeless while combating loneliness 

All I could do was keep living a lie 

Then I think back to that 12 year old poet 

How she didn't know it was what she would be 

All she could do was hide under her bed 

Scared to death that somebody might read her diary 

You see I have changed and I'll keep on changing 

And maybe my song-writing will suffer 

But it's okay if at the end of the day 

All I can do next is just be a good mother 

It's okay if at the end of the day 

All I can do next is be a good mother