This Ain't Livin' Lyrics - Layzie Bone

Yeah, what's happening my peoples 

That's how we're struggling 

Yeah, I know it's hard out here man 

But ain't nobody said it was gonna be easy 

You know what I mean? 

Together we stand 

That's how we're struggling 

Divided we fall 

What's happenin ya'll? 

What's crackin? 

Ain't nothing changed since I was a kid 

Nothing but the days, months and the years 

Putting it down and keeping it serious 

Trying to keep from shedding these tears 

You would have thought that it would have got better 

Making that rapping and doing these shows 

But to me it only got worse 

Close to (?) nobody knows 

The real steam, the reason why, I do the things that I do 

Getting so high, drinking these brews 

Feeling like I've got nothing to lose 

I payed my dues and the Lord blessed me 

But now I pray to save my mother, and my brother 

Lord please help me 

Heavy loads should be for heavy people 

But niggas just trying to provide for their family 

Facing cops and evil 

And we need our higher powers 

So what I'm going to do is keep my prayers to the sky for you 

Won't tell no lie for you, but nigga I'm willing to die for you 

Undivided, reunited 

With the fist in the pyramid 

Right about now I'm about to tip my lid 

Somebody tell me what this is 

A dream, a reality, my sanity about to give in 

Got the fame and the fortune but this ain't living 

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This ain't livin', but it's the only thing I know 

This ain't livin', I've got to find a higher road 

This ain't livin', but it's the only thing I know 

This ain't livin', I've got to find a higher road 

From the past, the present through, I'm talking about the struggle 

The shit hit me so hard I be swearing I'm seeing devils 

Sometimes it makes me wonder how I hold and maintain 

No matter which direction always seems against the grain 

What to do, what to do? I'm praying for solution 

In the course that I be kicking have me in a institution 

Trying to rid this life, of one I didn't chose 

How you gonna fuck me, I payed my dues 

Every minute of my life I be trying to focus 

Just when I think I got it someone make me know it 

Ain't the way I need to be 

And my eyes way heavy but 

I keep on pushing 'cause I ain't livin' for nothing 

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On a quest for peace, on a quest for peace 

But I can't escape these wicked streets 

Got me to realise that I could jeopardize 

A chance for my kids to be 

What they wanna be and what they could be 

And I ain't trying to be that hoody 

But I wish somebody understood me so they could see the good in me 

Trying to do thangs to make the world better 

And everybody hittin' me to be doing what I'm doing 

Strickly out here chasin this cheddar 

Ain't nothin' free ain't nothin' fair to me 

So all in all it's only me 

Take care of me and you should be doing the same thang 

My niggas complain' 

Trying to do to much explainin' 

When the key is really maintainin' 

Waitin' for the Lord to stop the rainin' 

Playing it safe we got to check ourselves 

Before we wreck ourselves 

First we got to respect ourselves 

'Cause a nigga won't give us nothin' else 

Don't sit there and talk me to death 

Go and get off your thang 

I'm a see a change when you make a change 

I believe I know the game 

Enduring our pain 'cause you got to take it 

And if you want it you'll make it 

See the drama and shake it 

Get your mind right 

Chorus 

He's on drugs 'cause he's unhealthy 

Family's splitting up 'cause they're struggling 

Somebody out there, don't you feel the need? 

Feeling hopeless 'cause I'm in (?slowly?) 

I'm lookin' for a better day 

I be praying for a better day 

I've been lookin' for a better way 

Chorus