Bars For My Brother Lyrics - Lowkey

Introduction 

So many regrets 

So many unanswered questions 

I miss you 

Miss you so much 

Listen, yeah 

Yo, yo, yo, yo 

I hope you're somewhere listening to this 

(And) I wish I knew why you did what you did 

'Cause I still haven't really come to terms with the truth 

There must have been something you were determined to prove 

The lessons you taught me, I can't forget 'em 

But there's so many unanswered questions 

Now everything seems meaningless 

You lived fast and died young 

But my brother you were a genius 

How could you ever believe that you'd survive? 

I don't care what they say, that shit was suicide 

I won't lie, there was much distance between you and I 

I should've told you not to do it, don't be stupid (why?) 

You've got looks, got brains and your future's bright 

Now you're gone I feel like I'm gonna lose my mind 

I never thought you'd get yourself organised 

I wish we saw the signs, the shock left us all traumatised 

These are awful times, and I need more than rhymes 

'Cause this was more than a tragedy 

You can't just cheat the forces of gravity 

You left me here to hold a brave face, supporting the family 

In a way you were dying to live 

It's fucked up man, I'm crying while I'm writing this shit 

Water from my eyes' stopping me from lighting my spliff 

Why didn't you realise that your life was a gift? 

Mum and dad don't understand why they've outlived their son 

Every single C.D., mixtape and album to come 

Is dedicated to none other than my blood brother 

But I hate you, for the way you made my Mum suffer 

Words can't explain, how a certain part of my heart hurts with the harshest pain 

Last time we spoke, we said we weren't brothers and we aren't the same 

I told myself you were too far past insane 

How could we not take your death badly? 

I just asked mum and she said your name meant 'happy' 

But my soul's too cold to laugh 

My heart bleeds when I'm looking at your old school photograph 

I wish that I could touch your beautiful flesh 

I'm writing but we ain't even had the funeral yet 

Now death is something, that I'm staying ever ready for 

You had plenty more to give, you weren't even twenty-four 

I don't understand why you had to die 

In a lot of rappers rhymes, death is glamorised 

Not me, I'll always stay remembering you 

We should've known this was something you'd eventually do 

When you got shift, we should've known it was bad 

The next day I was sitting here consoling my Dad 

It's like a nightmare, it still doesn't seem real 

But this is my life, not some fuckin' deep film 

It's just a strange feeling I felt in the late night 

Witnesses said that you fell from a great height 

Can't be my brother man, tell me it ain't right 

Right now I'd rather blaze, weed than face life 

Shit what a waste, what a shame 

I just gotta make sure your life wasn't lost in vain 

This is my brother, not just a departed friend 

So hard for my marge and them to start again 

From now on our lives will never be the same 

We're holding on too tight for the memories to fade 

Twenty-four years was hardly a life 

On the day you passed, it's like a part of me died 

I've been scarred many times but this pain is so much worse 

And it's so much harder to describe 

You will be sorely missed 

I'm sorry we didn't support you, we thought we did 

I wish I broke your leg so you couldn't jump 

Now all I can do...is rep your fuckin' name like I should've done 

'Cause it's only right 

I'm still not sleeping, but now I'm seeing your ghost at night 

We all wish we could've stopped you 

I know I can't go back in time now, but I want to 

It's like a tightened knot that I can't undo 

Why did I have to lose you to realise I loved you? 

Be careful what you wish for, in case it comes true 

Right now I'm confused, feeling so subdued 

When they arrested you, they wanted to section you 

The only thing we did wrong was going and getting you 

Next morning you was up, not doing what you was meant to do 

That wasn't the life that you were meant to have 

That wasn't the way that it was meant to be 

You were sick, not physically but mentally 

I still ain't got a fraction of this shit off of my chest 

All that goes through my mind is the constant regret 

Why, why, why did you die for no reason? 

All of a sudden the weathers cold it's so freezin' 

Have you ever heard the saying, when it rains it pours? 

Don't ever try to tell me my pain is the same as yours 

'Cause it's not, and everything isn't what it seems 

I'm pinching myself but I know that this is not a dream 

Why did you have to do that? it isn't fair 

Listen my brother, never think that I didn't care 

There's no words to describe the way that this feels 

Now I can clearly separate the fake from the real 

Why did everyone else have to be wrong? 

I still can't quite believe that you're actually gone 

Just five days, five days and it feels like the same day 

Weed ain't helpin' but I need it just to maintain 

'Cause the bleak reality is terrible 

And last night mum was practically hysterical 

People I thought would care, couldn't care less 

I need a lot of support 'cause I'm feeling bare stressed 

And everybody else seems immature 

I'm being tested, thinking what is there left that I'm living for 

I need to clear my thoughts, stop thinking and try and breathe 

Just a week ago I was so innocent and naive 

Now my insides are burning like hells flames 

I've realised up until now I've never felt pain 

It's so evident that everything I cared about before was so irrelevant 

There's certain people that call when they see that this shit is hurtin' 

But I see them for what they are now 'cause I'm a different person (I'm a different person) 

I'm a different person (I'm a different person, I'm a different person) 

Talking: 

S.D. 

R.I.P. (I miss you) 

In fact fuck R.I.P 

I want you to live through me, 

S.D. 

L.T.M. 

Live through me 

Live through me 

Live...through...me...