Retcon Lyrics - Arizona - Mylets

I don't know where this could lead me to 

I tore my heart and there's nothing more that I could do 

I'm too tired to sleep 

Too aware to wake or live this dream 

Where nothing I say is quite what I mean 

And I was huge or in-between something I knew or so it seemed 

I was you and you were... 

Can't you help me 

I am not the one you're looking for but there are wheels in the sky 

I'm not trying to invoke my father's name nor anyone's name I know