I Never Deserve The Things I Need Lyrics - Singles - On My Honor

I want to live by the ocean 

At least near water of some kind 

To keep me cool in the warmer months 

When winter hits, providing something solid in my life 

I'm not breaking any ice 

Thin limbs are reaching out too far 

They won't be getting any better 

A bitter man's mind 

Equipped with 

Childlike arms 

These branches are retracting 

Curling in on me 

Holding on as long as possible to every leaf 

Pleading with the earth and sun 

Until I fall, they'll all stay safe 

In my shade's reach 

But they're blowing away 

The colorful parts of me 

The purpose I serve 

Piece by piece 

Falling off of me 

A cleansing, by fire 

Burnt down in private 

No one can ever see 

I never, I never deserve the things I need 

I sought the role of an open book 

Lent too many times 

Thrown in bags, floorboards of cars 

Critiqued by too many minds 

Highlighted and dog-eared 

To no convenience of mine 

A cleansing, by fire 

Burnt down in private 

No one can ever see 

I never, I never deserve the things I need 

As much as it pains me 

I need you to know You're what I carry with me 

Every time I go 

Despite every nightmare 

Clawing at my soul 

I count it a privilege 

Just to watch you grow 

No rest for the strong 

If that's how you're perceived 

Too close, too close 

You're too close to me 

It's what I craved and cried for 

I never deserve the things I need 

I want to live by the ocean 

At least near water of some kind