Present Tense Lyrics - On My Honor

A child on church steps 

Reminding me of me 

Not in my current state 

More content, more clean at seventeen 

Whoever he's talking to 

I pray they're listening 

So he wont end up like me 

Try to see the good in everything 

But that young man's eyes are not for me 

They've been blinded and removed 

Ground and lit and smoked by breaths too deep 

I'm exhaling but my stomach stays week 

Like I've swallowed any keys 

That may unlock the answers I seek 

And still, I'm sweating through my sheets, too many nights on end 

Talks and dreams of how I thought I'd be a better man 

When I compare the past to my present tense 

I'm as clean, as clean as I have ever been 

Saw an old man sitting alone 

Lunch on a holiday 

Wondered who he used to see with him 

And it sparked in side of me 

The future that I used to see 

the way I feel today 

The visions that I used to paint 

And the canvases in my basement sitting blank 

Why can't I accept what's offered to me? 

Why can't I accept what's offered to me? 

And still, I'm sweating through my sheets, too many nights on end 

Talks and dreams of how I thought I'd be a better man 

When I compare the past to my present tense 

I'm as clean, as clean as I have ever been