When I Go Down Lyrics - Mmhmm - Relient K

I'll tell you flat out 

It hurts so much to think of this 

So from my thoughts I will exclude 

The very thing that 

I hate more than everything is 

The way I'm powerless 

To dictate my own moods 

I've thrown away 

So many things that could've been much more 

And I just pray 

My problems go away if they're ignored 

But that's not the way it works 

No that's not the way it works 

When I go down 

I go down hard 

And I take everything I've learned 

And teach myself some disregard 

When I go down 

It hurts to hit the bottom 

And of the things that got me there 

I think, if only I had fought them 

If and when I can 

Clear myself of this clouded mind 

I'll watch myself settle down 

Into a place where 

Peace can search me out and find 

That I'm so ready to be found 

I've thrown away 

The hope I had in friendships 

I've thrown away 

So many things that could have been much more 

I've thrown away 

The secret to find an end to this 

And I just pray 

My problems go away if they're ignored 

But that's not the way it works 

No that's not the way it works 

Any control I thought I had just slips right through my hands 

While my ever-present conscience shakes its head and reprimands me 

Reprimands me 

Then and there 

I confess 

I'll blame all this on my selfishness 

Yet you love me 

And that consumes me 

And I'll stand up again 

And do so willingly 

You give me hope, and hope it gives me life 

You touch my heavy heart, and when you do you make it light 

As I exhale I hear your voice 

And I answer you, though I hardly make a noise 

And from my lips the words I choose to say 

Seem pathetic, but it's fallen man's praise 

Because I love you 

Oh God, I love you 

And life is now worth living 

If only because of you 

And when they say that I'm dead and gone 

It won't be further from the truth 

When I go down 

I lift my eyes to you 

I won't look very far 

Cause you'll be there 

With open arms 

To lift me up again 

To lift me up again