Awakenings Lyrics - Laws Of Illusion - Sarah Mclachlan

When we first met the well was dry 

A long dark winter passed us by 

With shooting starts and hopeful hearts our worlds collide 

And so we rushed to fill each other in 

Quick to feed our hungry hopes 

A feast of our affections we were born anew 

Oh, whoa 

With open eyes we tried to make it work 

And for a while the magic took 

But cracks to begin to show as soon as things got hard 

Like paper walls our feelings tore 

We threw our backs against the door 

Unwilling to bear witness to the other side 

Oh, the games we play to hide the tangled dread inside 

The fear that we are going nowhere fast 

So we point the finger out, the anger gets so loud 

It drowns out all the sorrow, at least until tomorrow, what then? 

I took a good hard look at how I loved 

Years I squandered falling fast 

For any boy who'd have me was so insecure 

I'd lie awake alone at night 

Full of loathing, compromised 

And wondering how the hell did I end up like this 

Oh, the tears of rage I cried, when nowhere could I find 

An answer that made any kind of sense to me 

I point the finger out, the anger gets so loud 

It drowns out all the sorrow, at least until tomorrow 

Oh I wanna learn, I wanna know 

Will our history crush us or can we let it go? 

I'm not the girl I was but what have I become? 

I'm not so willing anymore to bend 

Still pleasing and conceding 

But I'm not gonna lose myself again