Killing Myself Lyrics - Showbread

Murder, seizing my arm, 

to puppeteer direction to kiss these sweet sinful lips of my demise 

I want to drive nails into the hands of my will, 

and trade it in for yours 

Falling in love with a fantasy 

to watch my life slip slowly out of me 

to bathe in the crimson that forgives me for being me 

Father teach me to care, 

guide your hands over these pale stitches in my heart 

the evasions of death impaling me like a bleeding lover that is calling after dark 

Twisting this dagger of shame further into my chest 

these tears turn to scarlet, 

I haven't given him my best sobbing over scalpels, 

invite this slow blood letting for a way to think of what I've been forgetting, 

is goodbye all there ever is to say? 

Goodbye 

I am tired of picking up the pieces. 

and dragging this glass across my throat 

will you hold me after I have let you down so much?