To A Loyal Friend Lyrics - Sopor Aeternus

Once there was a time, 

when the conquest of 

pain was all that I 

could hope for, had 

been my only aim. 

Happiness or joy merely 

unwords without meaning, 

they were unwanted 

anyway as surely out of place. 

All I wanted was the 

voices to be silent 

a brief moment in the 

dark, in loneliness and chill. 

How I wished my mind 

could escape the camat dungeon 

that was flying silently 

through space while 

I lay caged and chained within. 

Today my view - strangely 

increased - it is beyond compare, 

but nothing became easier, 

I'm still struggling to be free. 

A thousand different things 

dare to appear before my eyes 

now, they come and leave 

untouched, because still I cannot see. 

In true darkness there's 

no choice than do discover 

the uselessness of eyes, 

giving birth from their own despair. 

Here eyes can nothing but 

decay and if I fail and do 

identify myself with them 

then their destiny I'll share... 

You are with me all the time - all 

the time. So very unreasonable 

had been my fear. How could 

I ever believe that I might 

be losing you when forever 

we're connected and you 

are part of me. It's your 

omnipresence that defines 

the way in which I do 

exist, forcefully leading 

me back to where I do belong. 

Opening my eyes to see 

the true essence of my 

being, by dissolving 

the distractions of the 

outer world. In the loneliness 

of the pain you bring the 

isolation of my soul guarantees 

the maintenance of the only 

thing that I know, my 

natural and obvious differency. 

Beloved old friend and life-time 

companion without you to 

nothing I would fall. Your 

power pervades me and lies 

me low, but as the same time 

a new strenght is born in 

my soul. 

In a universe of change 

and continuous movement 

I am counting on you 

since I know you shall last. 

Being my darkness and 

the basis of splendor 

light-giving background 

as most fertile past. You 

trance-formation source 

of understanding you are 

the power that is pulling 

me down. Whenever 

lightness seeks to carry 

me away you connect 

me safely to the ground. 

You chill of my winter, 

eternal Saturn-sphere, 

petrified and frozen 

with a logic cold as ice 

I walk through the 

world look in surprise 

at the living without 

being able to share 

their strange delights. 

Beloved old friend, and 

bringer of sadness, 

shadow-like cloak almost 

matters so real, you slip 

right through me like 

I was merely membrane, 

my feelings so ambivalent 

when my wounds refuse to heal...