To Kill This Lyrics - This Providence

with a lack of self esteem i walked into my teens 

and six years later i'm still frustrated, i'm still not who i want to be 

and now it all comes down to, am i treating you right? 

if i could just be all that i can be for her 

that's when i'd be the man i long to be 

i hate this cycle it's a never-ending story of infinite last chances 

i keep telling myself "just grow up" 

but it's so easy to say and so much harder to do 

i hear it each and every day 

it's the only thing left to do 

it's time to kill this 

there's no two ways about it 

ends today right here right now 

it's time i learn that it's not a matter of 

saying the right words or singing the right songs 

it's so old but it's not easy to say good-bye to all this heartache 

to just say no 

to run away 

endure pain 

and suffocate every desire that hurts you 

my words and actions don't align 

my heart is the victim of my mind