Is Happiness Just A Word? Lyrics - Vinnie Paz

[Intro x3] 

Run 

(Go ahead and) 

[Hook: Yes Alexander] 

Darkness comes beneath the dying stars 

With all the blood and scars 

I'm gonna hunt you 

With fear I appear 

Nothing will stop me 

The greater 

Creature in me 

Shattered, I will capture you 

So run 

[Verse 1: Vinnie Paz] 

My family don't understand what I go through 

Under diagnosed for 20 years, ain't never broke through 

You ever been in such a fog you don't know you? 

Never being able to do the shit you're supposed to? 

I wouldn't wish it on anyone that I'm close to 

Wouldn't wish it on anybody that I'm opposed to 

There's not an accurate diagnosis to show you 

Basic neurobiology isn't close to it 

I'm watching life as a spectator 

I can't help myself, even though I possessed data 

It's not a part of my spirit to want to test nature 

You think you know what I'm feeling, cousin, then let's wager 

I'm having trouble retaining new information 

Familiar scenes starting to look foreign- derealization 

Everybody tired of being patient 

Mama wondering why her baby crying in the basement 

Constant rumination just exacerbates it 

To the point where I can't barely narrate it 

I've had doctors tell me that my mind is fascinating 

But they can't tell me why the sickness has been activated 

[Hook] 

[Verse 2: Vinnie Paz] 

My head don't work, the meds don't work 

But I don't want to be dead, dead don't work 

Sleep's the cousin of death, the bed don't work 

Maybe I'd rather be dead; dead don't hurt 

Realization of an inherent emptiness 

Maybe that's another sin for the pessimist 

Possibly I am a jinn with a exorcist 

I've fallen because I've been on the precipice 

Maybe it's my mama's possible regret 

Maybe it's a neurological neglect 

Maybe it's the reason why water's wet 

The angular gyrus and where the frontal lobe connect 

But maybe I'm being too complicated for you 

Maybe I should just be calm and explain it to you 

The psychiatrist thinking they could fool you 

Paxel, Zoloft, it's just wasteful to you 

I've tried meditation, tried to sit in silence 

But how the fuck that help a neurochemical imbalance? 

Why would you tell a person that they were childish 

Without an understanding of the pain that they surround in? 

I always feel foggy somatic detachment 

It's like my body isn't connected to actions 

It destroys everything that's affected the fragments 

I don't have nothing but senses and sadness 

[Bridge: Yes Alexander] 

Darkness comes beneath the stars 

With all the blood and all the scars 

Nothing will stop me 

The greater creature inside of me 

[Hook] 

[Outro x3] 

Run