Fairwell Lyrics - Singles - Benefit

I'm gonna leave the past alone 

I used to have a blast at home 

And a cellular phone, now I'm a walking skeletal bone 

My stomach's eating itself because I'm so damn hungry 

I'm homeless, just about worthless and stumbly 

'cause I just finished that last bit of Guinness 

why should i buy food bitch, mind your own business 

Now tend to mine, sometimes I tend to find 

A little piece of sandwich somebody left behind 

And I'll eat that the whole day, I beg thee always 

Say will work for food, have no place to stay 

Starvation has me living on my last chance 

I make a fast dash and hit up all the trashcans 

If I'm lucky I'll find a piece of bread, often instead 

I like to slash my neck leaving my shirt awfully red 

But I can't put the knife to my neck, my life is a wreck 

And I'd shoot myself if I had a rifle or tek 

Prolonged death through malnutrition is unbearable 

I try to find a job, I'm filthy plus I smell terrible 

So nobody wants to pay me, no hottie wants to lay me 

I tell the prostitutes to give me head, they disobey me 

Maybe, I'll join the military, join the Navy 

But I have no identification and no bravery 

So fuck it, I'm just gonna be alcohol's puppet 

Get really drunk, find a tall building and climb up it 

And then I'll jump off, but wait, I'm afraid of heights 

I have to turn off my lights some way with no frights 

What's the difference if I go out quietly or with a bang? 

There's a ledge, there's a rope, guess I might as well hang 

But that's some bullshit because I know it won't work 

What if my neck doesn't break on the first jerk? 

What type of shit is this? I guess I'll just slit a wrist 

But that's way too slow, and plus, what if the veins missed? 

I've abandoned all chances of begging and all chances of living 

Guess there's no obvious circumstances of giving 

Now if I'm gonna move on of free will 

The only way to eat a meal is to rob, steal and kill 

But I don't have it in me and I'm too damn friendly 

You're my enemy because I'm broke and you have plenty 

That's how I justify it in my own mental riot 

You're well fed and I'm about to die from this diet 

So you be quiet, and give up all your shit calmly 

I'm ornery and I have a rusty screwdriver on me 

And if you try to fight then it's going in your neck quick 

I'm a derelict but this is no lunatic rhetoric 

So take it seriously and don't try to screw with me 

Don't get furious or curious, I want your jewelry 

Yes all of it, hurry up I'm being tolerant 

If I choose to kill you, huh, the police ain't solving it 

'cause I'm a nobody and nobody is witnessing this robbery 

And after I kill you, I'll kill myself probably 

That's right, I'm gonna kill you now I'm so sorry 

But I got all of your money plus the keys to your Ferrari 

And that's all I need I knew that he would fall indeed 

Then the cops pulled up while I watched his neck bleed 

And they pulled out all their guns at me and yelled "Freeze" 

I put the screwdriver to my throat and fell to my knees 

God please, tell me who's at fault, is it me? 

I told the cops I used to be a productive MC 

And I signed a record deal with a shady company 

Who exploited me and left me homeless without a penny 

I was excited, the first label interested 

I did what I did 'cause I was a foolish young kid 

Oh well, if I live, I'm on a road to hell 

So I guess this is it, goodbye, farewell