Nostalgia Lyrics - Top Of The Line - Rittz

First time I ever set eyes on you it was love at first sight 

You was so young, your mom told me that she got a son, and you were the love of her life 

As time went on, me and you bonded 

I fathered you, I was so proud to be a dad 

We were so broke, I promised you that one day I would get rid of the problems we had 

I hope you accept my apology 

All the fights and the drunk nights that you saw in the past 

You never chose sides, we were so sad 

But when it came to happiness you're all we really had, you're an angel 

So happy-go-lucky, such a good soul, words can't express 

You had a gift of making people fall in love with you 

You affected every single person you met 

And we ain't have much, we spoiled you to death 

Anything you wanted you can have, I still laugh 

Think about the holiday when you snuck and ate a whole cheesecake we ain't even get mad, that's your favorite 

We was so stressed out, we were about to lose the house that we stayed in 

I was trying to be a rapper, we could've moved in my parents basement but couldn't bring you 

Really you're the one that made me quit trying to rap, so I went and got a job so that we could get a house, I'd do anything for you 

You, me, and your mom moved with your grandma 

It was us three stuck in a little room 

Finally had a place to play outside, I would love to see you run, like a dream coming true 

I was riding in my car to some tracks one day, played this beat, started thinking of you and now I'm... 

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Looking in my rear view 

Wishing I was near you 

It's quiet here without ya 

And I've been thinking about ya 

Feeling of nostalgia 

[Verse 2] 

I hated my job, I loved coming home 

I would lay in bed with you for hours on end 

Me and your mom were obsessed with you 

Cause you were momma's baby boy, and daddy's best friend 

But daddy ain't been, home a lot lately 

To play with, I tried to set you down and explain 

That I got a new job, that I wanted all my life, and that everything might possibly change 

That I'ma have to go out of town for some months but when I'm home, I'ma be around every day 

And when I'm gone I'ma need you to look out for your mom, keep her company while daddy's away 

Your momma sends pics of you and her in bed 

I would feel bad thinking that you thought I left 

But I was saving bread so we could finally have our own place, live a life that we should've always had 

And I did that 

Now you're spoiled even more cause instead of being cramped now you got your own room 

Your mom quit her job, and you and her could chill every day 

For the most part, I'd be home too 

And life is looking bright, used to see it so blue 

We finally were content, had a daily routine 

I made a bunch of songs with your name in them 

I would come into your room, hugging you and I would sing 

You were always treated like a king 

Cause you were everything that mattered to us and I would hate to see your cute face - crying 

Cause you knew that I was leaving for a tour 

Always hated when I go and grab that red suitcase out the closet 

You'd look at me and say you promise, you stayed by your mom when I'm gone 

I'll be back in a couple of months, give me kisses I'll be missing you a ton 

Homesick every time I'm... 

Photos 

Looking in my rear view 

Wishing I was near you 

It's quiet here without ya 

And I've been thinking about ya 

Feeling of nostalgia 

You grew up so fast, but you always had a baby face so it's hard for me to tell 

You were sick on and off 

We were just rough-housing on the bed, good to see you getting well 

I had to go to Omaha for a show, but your mom called me up and told me that you slipped and fell 

But you were limping, we figured that you twisted something and had to give it time to tell 

I got home and you were breathing funny and your hip was big as hell 

Your momma said that she began to see it swell 

This morning, this isn't normal, we took him to the doctor, we thought he might of broke his hip bone and it would heal 

It's crazy how life change in an instant 

The doctor walked in with his x-rays 

Said he thought he broke his hip, but he didn't 

He got bad news and there ain't no way to fix it, what is it? 

He said the x-rays showed bone cancer was spreading through his legs in a crazy position 

The amputation, the chemo, wasn't a option 

He probably ain't gon make it to Christmas, I blacked out 

Cause Christmas is like three weeks away 

When I left he was okay, now your telling me he's gonna die? 

He said he's strong so he's gonna fight 

Eventually you're gonna have to put him down whenever y'all decide 

Please God, not a dog, we're in shock, not our son, he's the only thing we got, we was done 

It'd be different if we knew that he was suffering for months, but he's limping, how the fuck is it that nothing can be done? 

Tried to comfort him as much as we could 

Drug his mattress - down the stairs to the center of the living room 

Me and his mom laid with him every night 

Petting him while he was crying, you could tell the pain was getting to him 

And me and her in disbelief, all we did was cry, all we did was scream 

Struggling to try, we'd take him outside, but he could barely walk 

And every day it seems, it's spreading even more 

The medicine we fed him isn't doing anything and we just can't accept it that our boy 

The most important thing is dying right in front of us 

Like how much do we let him suffer til we go and make the choice 

We were laying on the floor almost twenty days 

He ain't eating anymore, he can't move his legs 

It's December 21st, I think it's time for us to let him go so we can send him to a better place 

It's been several weeks, me and your mom still grieving feeling like we in denial 

I go in your bedroom every day, smell the air 

Start to cry for a while, then I smile thinking bout ya... 

Looking in my rear view 

Wishing I was near you 

We're crying here without ya 

We're dying here without ya 

Feeling of nostalgia