Smothered Lyrics - Self-destructive Pattern - Spineshank

The black and cold reminds me 

Of all the distance we have crossed 

And if your darkness blinds me 

I could never be more lost 

But I'm not the one who seeks your protection 

I'm not the one to share the disguise 

And I'm not the one who reeks of rejection 

I'm not the one to tear the same way twice 

You push from the inside, smothered 

You push from the inside out, smothered 

Have all your walls surround me 

They're closing in they block my sight 

The violence around me 

Found me when I could not fight 

But I'm not the one to take your direction 

I'm not the one who wears the disguise 

And I'm not the one to share your reflection 

I'm not the one you break the same way twice 

I will never win 

I will never win with you 

I read you 

I fear you round up no more than you know 

I hate you 

I still do every time you let me go