staring out to space what i do best. barely at the table as i chew as i swallow as i spit. i forgot my english as the language that i often abuse. yesterday a blackout swallowed up the afternoon.
yeah i think ill kill myself again today,. and ill probably do the same tomorrow. because it really doesn't matter,. i always wake up and everything is still.
maybe i know what you're saying to me. maybe your eyes give it away when your lips wont. but soon ill realize that your too blind to this heart. and then what ill know is that you will never open to me.
i guess its time, time for me to give up on you. i know what i promised, i promised forever but you took the future away. seems like I'm always taking a beating fighting your past and your pain.
and the last time we played for cherries you said you'd go down. and in the same breath saw the bvd release spring to life. in chasing skirt you're amateur to my bravado and poise.
got a reptile heart? keep it warm. got a message? keep it chill. got a thing for her? masturbate. got a human heart? kick it aside. . so listen to me,.
and just like you said, I'm alone and I'm a child. so would you let me hold your heart?. babys only need lies in your affection. never got to touch that part.
and just like you said, I'm alone and I'm a child. so would you let me hold your heart?. babys only need lies in your affection. never got to touch that part.
i messed around with your silly mind. i poked around in your knee deep philosophy. so i made your mama cum, and i stole your shoes. i ate your porridge kid, i ate your porridge.
combat depression rules the world (and its killing you). you'll live more life without anxiety ridden hidden pain. gotta get in gotta get out gotta get what's coming back to you.
maybe you'll find me saying a prayer for you. and maybe you'll find me saying a prayer for you. because you know you cant believe. what your daddy says what's right for her.
i was asked to get away. shut my mouth forget what i saw. be the fool. and that is something i can do. quite well, thank you. i walk away obliterated.
Cast off your shame and believe in something more. don't romance blame as your pain reliever, soul deceiver. . next time i shatter. i hope that you're long gone.
It's slowly turning inside out. It's breaking down from here. This makes me want to scream and shout. Can't wait to disappear. . Inside/Holding on, Holding out, Holding in everything.
Holding on until last call. I've been waiting for my alcohol. . Balance myself against the wall. Debate making my 9th last call. . Cause I don't want to use it.
You hesitate, to procreate, your up to late, exaggerate. You're such a find, they must be blind. Your insides hallow, it's all been mined. Now don't quit.
Coat tails, are dragging all around. Ride them, straight into the ground. With a bottle in your hand, you can do anything but stand, and deliver too. You won't see this thru.
I've been taking this time you've been wasting to write down what's inside. Of my mind that's been so hard to find since you came along and took me for a ride.
Wasted...... Stumble across the room till we collide. As close as I'll probably come to you. Say something, Play something. Break the ice in here. Sometimes objects are closer than they appear.
I am often trying on the inside. and you are sometimes waiting for the plan. but don't wait cause I don't mind. if you won't understand. . I am trying hard to change the subject.