Now, here you are.. What's this?. Howcome you're on your own?. Keep struggling. while your faith is. sinking like a stone,. and everything. around you.
Who am I?. What's my game?. I can not. stay the same.. . I never stopped to think. I am a product of my expectation. of what others expect from me.. That I expect more from myself.
Ignominious avaricious. ruinous impetus.. Nebulous sumptuous. fictious terminus.. . Be a part of something bigger.. Why don't you join the winning team?.
We've got a mission.. To conquer everything,. so that there'll be no one left. to question us.. No more adaption.. At least not from our part.. This is not a time to be.
I simply ask you:. Is this all you can do for me?. Well, it ain't enough.. No, no, no. And if my only other possibility is to. replace it all with numbness.
When you took a. look inside my. self-satisfied mind,. you chose not to. understand these. things you came to find.. . I have given something. you couldn't possibly share with anyone..
So this is your picture?. Well, that's what you say.. That a square has four corners. and so it shall stay.. Wouldn't it be better. if you were wrong?.
When you left. I had to make this place my own. To get on with my life. Brought down all these boxes from the attic. to pack everything here. that had anything to do with you.
Here they come,. the voices.. No use. to pretend. I can't hear. telling me. I Don't. deserve this.. . They rape my thoughts. and rob me of my self-esteem.
Oh, you think you're so clever,. telling me what to do.. In your eyes I'm a loser. 'cause I'm nothing like you.. Your shadow is stretching. all over the place.
Light seeks it's way on through the cracks,. making it impossible to sleep.. Knowing there will be an attack.. Fleeing up a hill that's too steep.. . I'm filling my life with obligations.
I remember everything.. Is that to be my curse?. These images that crowd me,. will they never disperse?. A distorted symbiosis. between now and then..
Sometimes I wish. I wasn't born.. Mixed emotions. about being here.. My thoughts just keep spinning.. Can't think clear.. It's not that I don't want to.
Oh,. what have we done?. Is it true?. Is everything gone?. Why didn't we. listen to you?. This could have had a different end.. I know.. . So look over your shoulder, now,.
We've got a new set of rules. enabling us to apply for grants. to take part in experiments of doubtful measures.. We've got a new set of tools. beyond surgical exactitude..
I emptied myself completely. to make enough room for you.. Now I trust in you to guide me,. whatever you'll have me do.. I know you will make all the right choices,.
I've come down from the high. Kissed my dreams goodbye. So I guess I'll be leaving soon. . My luck has run dry. And I can't figure why. So I guess I'll be leaving soon.
What is this meaninglessness that we feel?. Why can't I see what you see? Please, tell me.. Are there some rules that I never did learn?. Are we the only ones whose page doesn't turn?.
I fold my hands to pray.. I close my eyes to see.. I close my mouth so I can think.. I turn down the lights.. . Feel.. . I turn down my head.. Am I done?.
Tainted raindrop.. Chemical blue.. Shapeless grey lid,. close in on you.. Diminishing space. each and every day,. yet increasing a distance. for which the coming shall pay..