I was looking for God at my grandmama's house. Underneath the cushions on a couch. I looked all around, side to side, up and down. That man, no where to be found.
toppled again. eyes firm in a weakened stare. back here again. holed up in this warm room. again, again. eyes closed, it burns in me. come close again.
you never understood,. a single word i said,. it always found a way,. to bounce back and fourth,. you never know whats wrong,. even when its clear,. every time i look you in the eyes,.
the haze fades. she speaks in tongues of brighter days. i sink back. i'm so afraid in every way. the past fades. she sings the song of brighter days. i reach out.
the morning breaks so cold and gray. and i'm still here, alone. it's all the same, the years have passed. so slow and gray, with nothing. i can't believe that ten years have passed.
This is a life. Not a choice. Stop taking control. Of every little thing.. I can't pretend that everything is ok. Nothing will ever be the same. . Now I'm gone.
everything fades. as i decline. this facade burns away. and behind it all lies nothing but emptiness and pain.
and in a flash it lingers.... in the fire in the pain. the burning spiral burns again, for the last time. and then it fades. the dust it settles all around.
i'll wait, each and every day. i'll wait, for better things to come. everything will go my way. if i just wait patiently. all this sadness fades away.
i am so tired, please just take me away. just let me lay down here for awhile, again. open my eyes to the bright morning sun. hoplessly stare, she is with me again.
i can't think, think about anything. i can't think of anything at all. my thoughts drift but keep coming back to you. face to the ground, eyes closed hard.
aqua smile blue rhythm pulse me you. molten syrup flows through veins. twilight sprinkled a zillion eyes shine few. lava consume cool numb and trancing view.
everyday i pray for you. every day i pray. every night i think about.... every day i pray. i pray... for better things to come.
I know you've been broken, hopelessly lost. But I'm here to fix you whatever the cost. I'll chase out your demons, I'll OK your fears. Just stay by my side for the rest of our years.
i climb to the mountain. to the top of the mountain. and nine hours later. i stop in despair. i try to envision. the face of the girl. but she's so far away.
deep in this haze, I see her face. she creeps to me, she begs for me. I can not go, not this again. I'm much too weak, I'm conquered. and then I feel myself decline.
i don't think about her anymore. i don't think about her at all, at all.
life is so bare, life is so, so bare. we must not run, must not fight. we must stay here forever. everything is cold, everything is cold. i am such a child, just let me take this away... again.
you. peach lips rose hips. wrapped around you. you. sonlight skintight. heaven bound. stars fly. birds sigh winds cry. beneath the ground. my love. angel grin blessed within.
see the serpent twine. wrapped around her spine. coils inside her mind. bleeds her eyes so blind. she is killing time. casting pearls to swine. trapped beneath her crime.