I've tried it all. It's gone too far. And the worst of all. Is the promise that I can't keep. . I have emptied every source. I have learned all there is to know.
The silence awakes me. My heartbeat would so easily reveal me. Who am I what is left is it my mind. That constantly deceives me. . I am beginning to doubt me.
Feel free to question me. Let out the hate you feel. Blame all your doubts on me. And your caving reality. I will not judge, I cannot judge. So feel free to question me.
I recall when the bright light descends. Something takes possession over me. I remember when the nightmares began. On that cold night of December 26th.
Twilight. Still not dark. The snow on the ground sheds some light. A silhouette not taller than a child. Appears in the doorway. Too strange to be real yet too real to be a dream.
All is gone. And my soul screams sorrow. All is lost. As I shiver for tomorrow. Tomorrow. . I want to see this sorrow end. I want to feel joy again. The demons inside are here to stay.
Here I am the remains of me. My eyes tired but I can't sleep. My muscles withers. The weakness sows it's seed. God I ask you for your meaning of this.
So is this it?. Does time end here?. Is this what I fought for?. And what I've gained. What a fool I've been. To think life had more to offer. Instead I lye here.
Make me see through eyes. Of a different soul. Cause mine are closed and sealed. Since long before. To seek and hopefully find. Find my own voice. To sail beyond the sunset.
Compelled to speak when not to speak. My words lead and I follow. I must talk or else I'm weak. Let no one know my shell's hollow. . False world created.
Will the sun be rising that I won't know. cause light reaches me not. I know I'm aging and that I can't see. In darkness I am fumbling. With these hands as my eyes.
The wolves carries my name. In their midnight speeches. And that quiet subtle voice. Is summoning me from afar. And a voice much closer. Screams to me with unholy impatience.
Here we are once again.. Time to choose at the crossroads end.. Here we are stuck again.. Time to speak or to forever be silent.. . It comes to a point where I can't take another lie..
In a garden of sorrow. Among the mourning of souls. A silent whisper. You must walk alone. . Even though my tears tells me not to. I must walk alone. I seek shelter.
Show your soul for birth of freedom. Leave the cold to share our vision. Will you follow me. Will you walk with me. We'll hold your heart if it bleeds.
I place my foot on the first step. That leads me down into my fate. So father please forgive me. As I cannot see it end. I am now up on the table. It trembles under my weight.
Climbing walls of an endless circle. Walking paths you never heard of. Struggling in an endless battle. Searching for a higher purpose. . Drowning in betrayals river.
[my faith in you has always been there]. [I thought my trust in you would always last]. [but since you've deceived me]. [now that has to change]. [I'm on a mission built on vengeance].
Feel free to question me. Let out the hate you feel. Blame all your doubts on me. And your caving reality. I will not judge, I cannot judge. So feel free to question me.
In depths so deep I can't believe. Confusion conquers and frustration wins. Into where light does not reach. This is where pain and sorrow meets. . Into denial.