i didn't really need an explanantion when half of the time i was wondering if we were both in this the way i was if every second you were thinking of me when all i was thinking about was you sometimes i truly wish that i wasn't real sometimes i'd wish that they would remember the five hundred million dead because when you were off alive i'd lie here in my own blood the blood you'd wash away every single time right before i'd fall just far enough into being the model they created me to be sometimes i'd wish that they would remember themselves that was only half of the time though..
My time was on your time if you were on your own time. Your sleep stole my mind.. A fear in circles through waiting around. But now, it's over.. And we aren't always ourselves..
Is there anyone in this city?. Anyone who isn't asleep?. I'm feeling lost counting steps between street lights.. Still drawing triangles on my wrists..
This isn't what it used to be.. Like folded corners of worn pages trying to hold their place,. Because no one fucking cares anymore,. I'm peeling back finger nails to hold you..
She kisses like cough syrup when I have a cold.. but we're not in love, we're just alone.. Like a drug company's overdose.. Trying to replace our heads with holes..
For all the girls that have interest in me.. Please forget me. Just go home. I'm breaking bones. Over roaming free, empty, and with nowhere to go.. Who wants a boy sad and hurt from you missing your call back?.
I have bottomed out and my future doesn't fit into my schedule.. All booked up on depression and self-loathing.. Buried deep in sleep from passing out, no time to plan ahead..