Sorry I haven't written,. I've been in quite the mood.. I've been upside down for years now,. But the pay's been pretty good.. But I have to write a love song,.
This is the first scene of an act. with my own hands stuck in my back. around here, the puppet is the puppeteer. and I was down for the proverbial count.
I curse to hell the magistrate who granted this unholy fate. But I know, I know I asked for this myself I'm bound by law to hell. And its Sick! Sick! Sick!.
This place is draggin me down. A hamster wheel I thought I'd be done by now. now that all my allies are gone. I realize advancing could hold you back.
You never really knew. The things you learned would matter,. The things you did and didn't do would someday define you,. The things you hate the most,.
well I know the things you wear too easy. come on. fuck off. dont tell me anything. I can't hear my thoughts through this broken mind. get up. get up.
Your name is dirt. and I've got you under my nails,. from clawing to freedom,. I've been buried below your dark trails. Do you know who you are?. Are you having the time of your life?.
The night skys black and I'm awake lying on the ground. The grass beneath my feet is hard and cold just like I've come to be. The stars are gone behind the clouds and I can't see a thing.
You'll dance and laugh and cry. I'm dreaming dreams that wont come true. Don't bat your eyes. You care for yourself and others too. But me you treat like a disease.
So I sit here writing words in our old place. They all come out as letters. And I contemplate mistakes. That we all make. The start and the ending of eras.
Tony, your life's not over. But you've given up all you lived for. Put the bottle down. And fix the thing you ran from. . Do you say what you really mean?.
Well, Today is the 15th. And you know what that means,. Time to sit and go through boxes of old pictures. See if I can bring myself to,. The brink of giving up,.
It's getting cold. Thought it was too soon to tell but it was terribly old and as the heartbeat slows to a heartless crawl. The lights went out,. The lights went out and darkness filled the house on tiring night under a Long Island sky.
Do you know that every night I think of ways to get back at you. I sneak into your room. Put a pillow over your face. I suffocate you. Or reach into your chest and tear out your heart.
Butter on a summer day when she's around. I was on the tracks when the gates came down. And suddenly I recognized those bloodshot rearview mirror eyes as mine.
I thought maybe we'd made a pact,. But you gave into foul temptations making all the. Wrong moves and the wrong decisions. Making lies up for all the right questions.
Where will I be when there's pain. As far as eyes can see. Stand in line for days and nights. Making up lost time, this is how I feel. . So now I cut these loveless wrists.
Quit surrounding me. i'm already down and gone. locked defeat. got your eyes pealed. the only thing holding me are. why won't you quit. dragging me around.
My friend,. You're always the last one to leave. Those dimly lit rooms.. Making sure the last glass makes its way to the table empty.. And every bottle in the place.
Don't lift me up. With your strong intent on dropping me back down. Are you like this, afraid to be yourself?. And if you somehow get through all of this.